When the good day arrives!


One of the things I learned in a recovery workshop is to create new dreams after having your life interrupted with a psychiatric illness. I created a dream to become a mental health advocate, but I soon learned that creating a dream is one thing and living it is another.

I think my impatience is a result of having too much time on my hands. Not all days but some days a few hours of free time can feel like sitting in the dentist chair having my teeth pulled. When I am feeling good and overall having a good day I feel like I can accomplish so much more.  But on those bad days, like yesterday, I have no desire to do anything.

I wish I had a crystal ball that could tell me when the good days would bless me with their presence. I could be so productive if I had something of value to do. But what kind of job out there rewards people for having outstanding days periodically? There are so few that I have found I need to get creative and figure out a way to utilize my time more wisely.

Yesterday I read an article about a research project that NAMI conducted. It said that people with mental illness had an 80% unemployment rate in the United States. From everything I have read it seems that most other countries fall about in the same statistical ratio. So what does this say about mental illness and employment? The article does not address those of us who may be underemployed, which is an entirely different issue too.

What are we supposed to do when we have those good days?  I guess reading and writing is one way to spend time in a valuable manner. I just have to keep from getting too frustrated with myself because I recognize having too much time on my hands is not the best thing for my mental health. I am a goal directed individual and the more goals I can have for myself the better I feel.

The problem comes when I start wishing there was an immediate “feel good” solution for me on those days when I am far more capable of doing complex tasks.  These are the times when I focus hard on positive self-talk. It’s really easy to go down the path of “let’s beat up Amy today,” even though I know it is not a healthy thing to do. I may say something like, “If I tried harder I could accomplish more.” “I need to be more organized with my time.” Then I get all excited about having a new plan of action and I wake up the next day and getting out of bed may be the best I can accomplish.

This up and down road makes it a harder to check off the “to-do” list. It also makes it more difficult to have consistent approaches to various goals ultimately making it harder to have achievements. Certainly it is not impossible, just more difficult.

If I had one wish I would hope for more resources to be placed in helping those of us living with a mental illness to have working projects where we could utilize our skill sets. Maybe a collaborative writing project where we contributed to a group writing project. I don’t know the answer. I just know I need something I can feel good about.

8 thoughts on “When the good day arrives!

      1. Aimingtobegreen,
        I’m so glad someone out there can relate. Somehow it makes it a much easier journey to know you aren’t alone! Thanks for stopping by my blog and for commenting!


  1. Yes, Amy, I also relate to this post as well. I hate those “Jonah” days so much!!! I am glad you wrote about it and I hope that tomorrow is much better for you! (((HUGS))))


  2. Hi Amy,

    Thanks for sharing. I can definitely relate to what you have written. During the good times I feel I should be accomplishing so much more. I feel I should be getting out in the workforce and making my contribution to my little corner of the world – something more important than what I do at home to give me purpose. Then not too long after I have bad days and realize I can’t handle the stress out there any longer on a daily basis. I can barely do anything at home. I feel so deflated and useless. But Amy, you are writing and people are reading. You are making a difference. You are making us think, inspiring us to work at our wellness, and letting us know that we are not alone in our struggles.

    A group writing project sounds interesting and could be fun. How would that work or is it still in the idea stage? You might be surprised at the positive feedback you’ll get when you pose the idea to whomever you hope to get onboard.

    Please do keep writing. Your’s is a voice we need to keep hearing.



    1. Hi Journeyupward,
      I have to tell you, you made my day. Thank you for your words of encouragement about my writing making a difference. I really hope I can touch people with the stories I share–so that none of us are alone in our struggles for wellness. The idea of a group writing project just struck me yesterday. I just see so many people with so much talent and I thought why couldn’t we collaborate on something. It might be really cool. I don’t have the specifics, but I’m open to any and all your suggestions. Thanks again for commenting. I completely understand where you are coming from.


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