Ever since my last manic episode I have been monitoring my symptoms very closely. Sometimes I get worried when I start to see a few signs of hypomania pop up and I have worried about this escalating into a full blown manic episode.
But…I remind myself that as long as I am getting enough rest and taking my medications everything will work out okay.
I have also discovered that after a long period of depression even a return to a normal amount of energy can seem like hypomania. Isn’t it okay to have a little more energy and feel excited about life?
It truly is a challenge to keep the moods in check. But equally it is important to give myself a little leeway and be alright with a little extra energy. I just don’t want to ever end up in a full blown manic episode again, but I don’t want to paralyze myself from living. Finding the balance is what has worked for me.
Because I live with a chronic condition I realize there are going to be those times when I experience some symptoms both manic and depressive. But I refuse to live in fear. I stay on top of my symptoms and manga the illness. If I have a day or two with less sleep than usual I try to monitor it. I think about how much cafeine I am drinking and how much exercise I have had. This all helps me to feel more confident about handling this illness.
Since my schedule has become a bit more demanding I allow for extra time when I can unwind. I am blessed that I can control my schedule to some extent. But if I have too many early mornings in a row I make sure I have a couple of down days to recover.
Hypomania does scare me just a little, but I refuse to let this illness keep me from living a full life. The key for me is to monitor, manage and adapt. It is the best I can do under the circumstances.