Today I have reached a milestone in my recovery journey. I no longer think of myself as mentally ill. Oh yes, I still have to live with bipolar disorder and manage it, but I have been enjoying a period of sustainable wellness. To be honest, I never thought this day would happen.
For several years I battled very severe depression with brief moments of manic episodes, but none that were ever enjoyable. I fought countless days to function and wondered if I would ever become a contributing member of society again. Well, the days have arrived.
In this recovery journey I have read numerous articles about people who got sick and then got well and moved on with their lives. I could see it was possible, but I did not know if it would be possible for me. But now here I am.
Because of where I have evolved too, I no longer feel the need to write about pain and sorrow. I am not drawn to write about my past demons. I am at peace with my past and so it shall stay there.
But what I hope to do is write about how I have recovered. The ins and outs the ups and downs. The journey has been nothing short of a miracle and at any time along the way I could have chosen to give up. But…I didn’t. That’s the biggest secret and it is obvious….you can’t give up no matter how tough it is and how much it hurts. You must persevere and continue to expect a good outcome.
So I am beginning to live my newly created life. Filled with dreams and possibilities and potential. I have learned I am so much more than my diagnosis, I am truly beyond bipolar disorder. Although there was a time in my life when it completely consumed me. By the grace of God that time is over and that book has ended.
The new book has begun.
If you have a mental illness I want you to know that it is possible to get well. You can have a satisfying life and contribute to your community. Believe in the possibilities. And most importantly don’t give up. You may be very surprised how things turn out.